Thanks Wendy, Sam, Cath and Sarah for your sympathetic comments. I must say I am feeling a little down this morning. Mum stayed the weekend and she gave me a little cuddle this morning and of course a few tears came. It stung! My left eye was actually almost closed when I woke up (!?). It's a good thing I'm not at work. I would definitely have frightened the customers away.
I wouldn't mind but I'm not an allergic type person. If this was my sister I could almost believe it as she's allergic to elastoplasts and her son suffers from hayfever. But me? Not a jot of an allergy (unless you count amoxycillin and septrin - antibiotics).
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm due to go for my weighin this evening. It's not as though I can get any help from the counsellor after all she's only 'one of us' who's now selling the stuff to other like-minded dieters. If I spoke to Cambridge HO they would probably only recommend that I came off the programme. Shall I go along to my CDC and try to get as many lactose free packs as I can? Shall I stop the diet for another week or so and restart again once the eyes have gone down? It makes no sense - I've had no problems with my bowels and GI tract. I've had no stomach cramps, diarrohea or constipation. I've had a little bloating, but that's something I've put up with for years so that seems the norm to me. Have I been misdiagnosing myself and it's not actually lactose intolerance at all? Could it be a reaction to the inulin? I only latched onto lactose because my doctor thought I had an intolerance to it a few years back (but I love a glass of cold milk and I can eat any foods with milk in it). Of course, I have always had a problem with my bowels. And then the US website I found gave a symptom of "black eyes" - swollen, bruised red eys....well that's me. But I haven't any of the other GI symptoms connected with lactose intolerance any more. In fact, my loo problems have more or less cleared up while on LL and CD ('praise be the lord!').
I'm going on a bit here, aren't I? It's just all the thoughts in my head going round and round and round. Now, if I was taking a recreational drug or those awful slimming tablets that we've probably all tried at some time in maybe the long distant past I could understand having side effects. BUT, NO! I'm using a diet programme that many doctors and dieticians swear by to help people who have a lot of weight to lose. Why is it that my body's letting me down? It lets me down by getting way too overweight and then it lets me down when I try to do something about it. If it wasn't that I had to live in my body......well I don't know what I'd do.
Well, I've got my frustrations out on paper (not exactly on paper, but you know what I mean) and I can't say I feel better, but I feel a little more......less seething. I was about to cancel this as it is rather rambling and, agressive, I suppose, but I've published it anyway as it is how I'm feeling today and that was the whole point in keeping a web diary in the first place - to keep a record of how my journey to lose weight progresses. That was before we all got together and became a group of 'friends' helping and supporting each other. So, if you've got this far, thank you for reading and I will cheer up soon, no matter what decision I make.
Have a good day everyone..........
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Oh Chris, my heart goes out to you it really does. Dieting is hard enough when there's just abstaining from food and testing the willpower to deal with, but I must admit, many (probably including myself)would have given up by now, but not you, you've shown such determination and strength you've been amazing.
I wish I had some better advice I could give you, but it really is a mystery why you're body is reacting like this. You may already have had this done but would an allergy test be able to shed any light on it? Maybe then they could confirm or disprove whether it is the lactose causing it?
Good luck at the weigh in, and whatever you decide to do Cambridge or Not Cambridge, you've shown such determination, whatever way you diet, I'm know you can do this.
Lots of hugs...Mel x
Chris I feel so gut wrenchingly sorry for you - you've worked so hard and yet you keep coming up against the obstacle of your reaction to the packs.
I don't know much about being tested for allergies but is there anyway you could go and be tested as it may not even be lactose it may be one of the flavourings.
Have you added any new flavours to your last pack order - just trying to work out what could have made it flare up for you like this.
Really hope you find some way around this and of course I wish you the very best of luck for your weigh in.
Cath
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Have you actually had a lactose test to determine either way?
I too was told after a real bout of serious food poisoing in spain when a teenager many, many years ago that I was Lactose intolerant. Went through all the test at hospital, including camera up bottom and drinking lactose which apparently sent me off the scale and was said to prove beyond doubt I had it. Then saw dietician and I came to personal compromise over the years ... I have soya milk, still eat cheese, and can generally function with milk on holidays or have tea and coffee with friends.
I mention this ramble as I was told it was going to be like this for life. I have since been told once the gut repairs I no longer have the intolerance. Like most people this all started with a really bad case of IBS.
As far as I rememebr I have never taken the drops like you have been, but so far not had any lactose symtoms like you either.
If not been tested, could you ask GP. Or equally have been check out if the latter theory is true?
Good Luck, and in meantime I would ask for as many lactose free ones, and get her to pre-order for you for the following week so you get enough.
thought are with you
Sam
Hi Chris - I'm really sorry to hear about your gammy eye and the other symptons. What a total pain in the ass! Don't blame you for letting off some steam. I can sympathise re the body lettting you down thing too as my blood pressure is still high despite all the books saying it will go down as you lose weight! But at least for me my BP is not jeopardising the diet.
If you feel that you have to come off CD after next week and, once you've had checks at the doctors to confirm whether you're Lactose intolerant, perhaps the Atkins diet might be the way to go for you? I lost a fair bit of weight on that quite quickly a while ago. Admittedly I put it back on but I think the key is the mental attitude which you get from LL and if you could carry that on to Atkins it might do the trick for you??
Just a thought - I'm thinking of you and really praying that you have a better week and can stick it out.
Lesley x
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