At times it seems ages and ages since I started this Programme and I can hardly remember eating a proper meal. But there we are, starting week 4 already - a fifth of the way through. I only need to do this 4 more times and I'm there!!
We went for our weigh-ins last night and another 3 lbs off. That's 14lbs in 3 weeks. That's one whole stone - yippee!
The TA was interesting. We did an exercise where we given scenario-type questions where we were to decide which ego-state we would be in if this particular event/circumstance was happening. Most of the time I followed, but I must say I do occasionally get confused with whether I'd be in parent or child ego-state. I'm Ok with adult - that's the reasoned and logical approach. And when we get to the sub ego-states, well, I'm well and truly lost. As I said on a previous post, I must do some reading...
I'm going to sign off now. I don't feel to well this evening. Just wanted to log my weightloss and say hello. Speak soon.
Wednesday 28 February 2007
Sunday 25 February 2007
Day 19
Both eyes are now affected. The outer corners of each eye are very sore and the patch below my chin has got rawer.
I follow the forums on www.minimins.com so I posted a thread asking if any other clients of LL had suffered from the same allergic reaction. Three girls wrote saying that they'd also either known someone with the problem or had suffered it themselves. I've decided to continue with the diet, for as long as I can though. I popped in to see my counsellor this afternoon and she said she'd give HO a ring to have a word with them about it. Anyway, I think I'll give my GP a ring tomorrow and get an appointment (don't know how long I'll have to wait for that though!).
I went a masqurade ball yesterday evening for work. I managed to cover my eyes Ok. I've found that a green powder base under my foundation works really well now that the dryness and swelling has gone down. Well no-one seemed to notice anything anyway. They were more interested in the weightloss that can already be seen (yippee!) and the fact that I sat at the dinner table drinking water and eating a toffee bar. We'd all chosen our meals weeks ago (prior to me joining LighterLife) and I'd actually chosen a healthy option - melon, salmon, and cheesecake (well maybe not the cheesecake). It looked gorgeous when it came out but, surprise surprise, I wasn't even tempted. The others on the table shared mine out between them and they just couldn't believe that I could sit there and not eat or drink the wine that was copiously flowing. Did I feel virtuous? You could say that!
Another good thing about last night - I don't have a hangover today. I don't know how many more can say that.
I follow the forums on www.minimins.com so I posted a thread asking if any other clients of LL had suffered from the same allergic reaction. Three girls wrote saying that they'd also either known someone with the problem or had suffered it themselves. I've decided to continue with the diet, for as long as I can though. I popped in to see my counsellor this afternoon and she said she'd give HO a ring to have a word with them about it. Anyway, I think I'll give my GP a ring tomorrow and get an appointment (don't know how long I'll have to wait for that though!).
I went a masqurade ball yesterday evening for work. I managed to cover my eyes Ok. I've found that a green powder base under my foundation works really well now that the dryness and swelling has gone down. Well no-one seemed to notice anything anyway. They were more interested in the weightloss that can already be seen (yippee!) and the fact that I sat at the dinner table drinking water and eating a toffee bar. We'd all chosen our meals weeks ago (prior to me joining LighterLife) and I'd actually chosen a healthy option - melon, salmon, and cheesecake (well maybe not the cheesecake). It looked gorgeous when it came out but, surprise surprise, I wasn't even tempted. The others on the table shared mine out between them and they just couldn't believe that I could sit there and not eat or drink the wine that was copiously flowing. Did I feel virtuous? You could say that!
Another good thing about last night - I don't have a hangover today. I don't know how many more can say that.
Friday 23 February 2007
Day 17
I telephoned LL HO this morning and spoke to a woman in the medical department. She hadn't heard of the eye/rash problem before so went off to speak to somebody. To cut a long story short, they thought it would be a good idea to come off the diet for a week to see if the problem clears up. Then when I go back on the diet, if the patches come up again I'll know that I'm allergic to something in the foodpacks.
But I don't want to come off the diet. 11lbs in 2 weeks, who wants to give up on that?
I've been home today so I've spent most of the day looking up 'rash' and 'lighterlife' on the internet. I saw a couple of references but couldn't make any sense out of the links - they all seemed to be in Yahoo answers and I couldn't find the proper pages. So, I went onto the LighterLife forum in www.minimins.com and posted on there, but with no answers or anyone else suffering the same.
I shall still leave off the raspbery shake though and see if that makes any difference. I can't give up now. I'm into the Programme now and I want it to work. I felt really down this morning but, having made the decision to continue, I feel a little more positive this evening. So long as the rash, or whatever it is, doesn't get any worse I will cope for a while longer. At any rate, hold out until I go to the doctor for the 4 week check.
My company have got their annual dinner-dance tomorrow evening. It's a masquerade ball. I shall have to make sure I wear plenty of make-up and a large mask.......heehee
But I don't want to come off the diet. 11lbs in 2 weeks, who wants to give up on that?
I've been home today so I've spent most of the day looking up 'rash' and 'lighterlife' on the internet. I saw a couple of references but couldn't make any sense out of the links - they all seemed to be in Yahoo answers and I couldn't find the proper pages. So, I went onto the LighterLife forum in www.minimins.com and posted on there, but with no answers or anyone else suffering the same.
I shall still leave off the raspbery shake though and see if that makes any difference. I can't give up now. I'm into the Programme now and I want it to work. I felt really down this morning but, having made the decision to continue, I feel a little more positive this evening. So long as the rash, or whatever it is, doesn't get any worse I will cope for a while longer. At any rate, hold out until I go to the doctor for the 4 week check.
My company have got their annual dinner-dance tomorrow evening. It's a masquerade ball. I shall have to make sure I wear plenty of make-up and a large mask.......heehee
Thursday 22 February 2007
Day 16
Since Day 2 the lid of my right eye has had red patches on it (nice!). They look a little like eczema patches; I don't suffer from eczema. At first it was just a small patch and when it cleared I put it down to the body detoxing (although I had only been on the diet 1 day!). On the weekend the patches returned with a vengeance. They are bigger and rawer looking. I have been 'artfully' covering my eye with make-up for work but it still shows (from my perspective, anyway) as the eyelid is quite swollen. I didn't think it was worth making an appointment to see my doctor so yesterday afternoon I popped along to see my local pharmasist for his advice. Having told him that I wasn't using any new creams, soaps, detergents or make-up, I said the only difference in my life was the LighterLife Programme. He asked if I was allergic to any fruits (which I'm not) and said that his wife had been on the Programme and was unable to drink the raspberry shake as she came up in a rash. Aaahhh! I've bought 3 raspberry packs for this week, so I'm not going to use them and see if it clears up and if so, then maybe I'll have one as a test to see if the redness comes back - I tell you, I could do without this. But if it's not the raspberry, what next? Your guess is as good as mine.
I've left a message on Heather's answerphone to give me a ring. Maybe she can check with LL HO to see whether there have been any problems with other clients.
Other than the eye, everything else is going well. My work skirt, which I fully admit was very tight just over 2 weeks ago is now getting on the loose side - another 2 weeks and I'll have to invest in a new one. I'll need a whole new uniform soon. There goes some of my clothes expenses. Oh well, what's money, eh?
I've left a message on Heather's answerphone to give me a ring. Maybe she can check with LL HO to see whether there have been any problems with other clients.
Other than the eye, everything else is going well. My work skirt, which I fully admit was very tight just over 2 weeks ago is now getting on the loose side - another 2 weeks and I'll have to invest in a new one. I'll need a whole new uniform soon. There goes some of my clothes expenses. Oh well, what's money, eh?
Tuesday 20 February 2007
Day 14
We had our third meeting this evening. I'd kept to my resolution not to weigh myself at home and was really nervous about being weighed. It's the old nerves we all get whenever we do an 'ordinary' diet, "Oh, please, let there be a loss." But of course with LighterLife, if you keep to the Programme, you will lose. It's just getting your mind around this. I lost 4lbs this week. But, my initial comment to Heather was, "Is that all!". After she stopped laughing I agreed that, Yes, I was pleased - that's 11lbs in 2 weeks! If this had been that 'ordinary' diet I would have been astounded and over the moon. It's amazing how easily we get into expecting so much more with LighterLife.
We started the Transactional Analysis side of the Programme this evening and spoke about the Parent, Adult, Child, egos we all have within us. I must try to make time to research the background of TA and CBT. Most of the girls joined in the discussions. I hope those who were a little less able to give input will come round and feel comfortable enough to speak in the coming weeks. I'm sure this will be the case. The group really seemed to have gelled tonight. The chatter and giggling going on whilst Heather was weighing everyone was so much more spontaneous this week. It was good to see.
I'm going to try the homework exercises this week, including the 'letter to myself'. I'm a little anxious about this one but I shall give it a go. If I have trouble with it though, I shall just return to it another time. I'm not going to beat myself up about it.
Into week 3......
We started the Transactional Analysis side of the Programme this evening and spoke about the Parent, Adult, Child, egos we all have within us. I must try to make time to research the background of TA and CBT. Most of the girls joined in the discussions. I hope those who were a little less able to give input will come round and feel comfortable enough to speak in the coming weeks. I'm sure this will be the case. The group really seemed to have gelled tonight. The chatter and giggling going on whilst Heather was weighing everyone was so much more spontaneous this week. It was good to see.
I'm going to try the homework exercises this week, including the 'letter to myself'. I'm a little anxious about this one but I shall give it a go. If I have trouble with it though, I shall just return to it another time. I'm not going to beat myself up about it.
Into week 3......
Saturday 17 February 2007
Day 11
I feel really cold this afternoon. It's a mild day out. The temperature in the London area is supposed to go to about 14 degrees but I'm sitting in the living room in a cardigan and with the fire on. It was only yesterday evening that I had written in a forum that I hadn't experienced feeling cold at all. How easily was I deceiving myself!
I was at work this morning and all smiles because of the positive comments I was getting from my colleagues. Not only was the weight loss showing but Karen said I looked really fresh and alive. They haven't seen me for a week as I work in a different office on a Saturday to the ones I work in weekdays. I was asked how much I'd lost but could only say, "Well 7lbs up to last Tuesday, and that's just in one week".
I've forced myself not to get on the scales at home this week. I know if the weight loss has slowed down I will be disheartened so, "just for this week", I have decided to wait until I go for the weigh-in on Tuesday to find out how much I have lost. Even if it has slowed down I don't think I'll be that disappointed, because if people are noticing already, and I'm feeling slimmer, and my clothes are not so tight, it must be working.
John has decided that seeing as I am doing LighterLife he will try a little weightloss plan of his own. Well, I haven't exactly seen him cut down on anything much at home (other than he hasn't eaten the large bar of Galaxy in the fridge) but he told me yesterday evening that he has lost 4lbs. Blast him! He's still eating! I'm still cooking family meals - and they're fairly healthy, so how is he losing it? It can't just be the lack of Galaxy chocolate? The only thing I can think of - he's cut down at work. He works in a solicitors practise in the West End of London; there are plenty of little eateries where I know he picks lunch up every day (although I'm always telling him we'll never get rich by making all those places rich). He must be getting less from them, or making better choices. You never know, our bank balance might go up a little as well!
But I'll beat him in the end......hee,hee
I was at work this morning and all smiles because of the positive comments I was getting from my colleagues. Not only was the weight loss showing but Karen said I looked really fresh and alive. They haven't seen me for a week as I work in a different office on a Saturday to the ones I work in weekdays. I was asked how much I'd lost but could only say, "Well 7lbs up to last Tuesday, and that's just in one week".
I've forced myself not to get on the scales at home this week. I know if the weight loss has slowed down I will be disheartened so, "just for this week", I have decided to wait until I go for the weigh-in on Tuesday to find out how much I have lost. Even if it has slowed down I don't think I'll be that disappointed, because if people are noticing already, and I'm feeling slimmer, and my clothes are not so tight, it must be working.
John has decided that seeing as I am doing LighterLife he will try a little weightloss plan of his own. Well, I haven't exactly seen him cut down on anything much at home (other than he hasn't eaten the large bar of Galaxy in the fridge) but he told me yesterday evening that he has lost 4lbs. Blast him! He's still eating! I'm still cooking family meals - and they're fairly healthy, so how is he losing it? It can't just be the lack of Galaxy chocolate? The only thing I can think of - he's cut down at work. He works in a solicitors practise in the West End of London; there are plenty of little eateries where I know he picks lunch up every day (although I'm always telling him we'll never get rich by making all those places rich). He must be getting less from them, or making better choices. You never know, our bank balance might go up a little as well!
But I'll beat him in the end......hee,hee
Friday 16 February 2007
Day 10
Can you fall out of ketosis by eating builder's dirt? I certainly hope not. But that's all I was eating yesterday. I went to work Thursday; my office is being refubished and the builders have been in for about 3 weeks. I got home from work in the evening and my teeth felt really gritty. I sure didn't have any trouble drinking all the water though. I'm sure the builders must think I have a bladder problem. If I wasn't almost climbing over them every 20 mins or so to get to the loo, I was asking one of them to wait outside while I went (he was in the ladies fitting the electrics and extractor fan - and we have no gents I could have used in desperation as they have taken that out!!).
I thought I would wear my pedometer to work. I didn't do too well with it though. I only clocked up 1791 steps from the moment I got in the car to go to work to when I came home - and that was with all the loo breaks too! (NB. I'm not being lazy taking the car to work, it's a 19 mile round trip, with no easy public transport links)
So, when we went to Ikea today I thought I would give the pedometer another try, after all I had to beat yesteday's count, didn't I? Well, NO! The flipping pedometer wasn't working properly, was it. It showed I'd only walked 87 steps by 1.00 pm, and that was since I'd got up this morning. There's no way you can walk less than 5 miles around Ikea, just trying to find your way out (hee,hee). I'm wondering ,though, whether the pedometer broke when it flew away from me this morning as I was trying to attach it to my jeans. It landed on a leather sofa. I wouldn't have thought that was enough to break it but I'll take it to the meeting on Tuesday, it could be faulty.
John and Elizabeth wanted to have a lunch of meatballs whilst we were in Ikea (I think that's probably the main reason we went). So we queued for 10 days to get served and then trekked 5 miles to find a table, just for me to sit with a black coffee and the obligatoty bottle of water. But, do you know what, I didn't even mind. I wasn't hungry and even the smell of the food didn't phase me at all. RE-SULT!
I do feel a little peckish this evening though. It's gone off a bit as I've just had a caramel shake as I type this, but I think the hunger pangs are because I'm rather behind on the water today- it's 7.00pm and I've only drank 2 litres. This could also account for why I felt a little queasy and lightheaded in Ikea. I must be sure in future to keep the water coming more regularly.
John and I are off to the Queen's Theatre tomorrow evening. How on earth am I going to be able to sit in the middle of a row for an hour? I'll have to keep my legs well and truly crossed.
We always treat ourselves to a Magnum in the interval. Missing that will be another test of willpower - but I shall hold out. I am sure.........
I thought I would wear my pedometer to work. I didn't do too well with it though. I only clocked up 1791 steps from the moment I got in the car to go to work to when I came home - and that was with all the loo breaks too! (NB. I'm not being lazy taking the car to work, it's a 19 mile round trip, with no easy public transport links)
So, when we went to Ikea today I thought I would give the pedometer another try, after all I had to beat yesteday's count, didn't I? Well, NO! The flipping pedometer wasn't working properly, was it. It showed I'd only walked 87 steps by 1.00 pm, and that was since I'd got up this morning. There's no way you can walk less than 5 miles around Ikea, just trying to find your way out (hee,hee). I'm wondering ,though, whether the pedometer broke when it flew away from me this morning as I was trying to attach it to my jeans. It landed on a leather sofa. I wouldn't have thought that was enough to break it but I'll take it to the meeting on Tuesday, it could be faulty.
John and Elizabeth wanted to have a lunch of meatballs whilst we were in Ikea (I think that's probably the main reason we went). So we queued for 10 days to get served and then trekked 5 miles to find a table, just for me to sit with a black coffee and the obligatoty bottle of water. But, do you know what, I didn't even mind. I wasn't hungry and even the smell of the food didn't phase me at all. RE-SULT!
I do feel a little peckish this evening though. It's gone off a bit as I've just had a caramel shake as I type this, but I think the hunger pangs are because I'm rather behind on the water today- it's 7.00pm and I've only drank 2 litres. This could also account for why I felt a little queasy and lightheaded in Ikea. I must be sure in future to keep the water coming more regularly.
John and I are off to the Queen's Theatre tomorrow evening. How on earth am I going to be able to sit in the middle of a row for an hour? I'll have to keep my legs well and truly crossed.
We always treat ourselves to a Magnum in the interval. Missing that will be another test of willpower - but I shall hold out. I am sure.........
Wednesday 14 February 2007
Day 8
How can you feel disappointed with a 7lb weight loss? That's what I'd lost by last night's first official weigh-in. If it had been any other diet than LighterLife I would have been shouting it from the rooftops. Of course I'm delighted, it's just that after losing 6lbs by Sunday, I had hoped for a little more. I don't believe I'm actually thinking that though. 7lbs is absolutely b****y fantastic and well on track for a stone lose within the next 3 weeks - I should be ashamed of myself!!!
But I'm not ashamed, actually, I'm quitely chuffed with myself. At last I'm taking control. I'm committed to this Programme now and we haven't even started the CBT and TA work yet. (CBT = Cognitive Behavoural Therapy and TA = Tansactional Analysis). I'm rather looking forward to the coming sessions. Five years ago I completed a Basic Counselling Skills course at adult education classes. I really enjoyed the course and would like to have taken it further but I was going through a period of, undiagnosed at the time, depression that was made worse by a recent hysterectomy and the death of my Dad. It will be very interesting to see the counselling sessions in action and be part of the process. I can't wait. I shall say more about the counselling as we go along, without giving any pertinent information as anything said in group is completely confidential and for the group only.
As it's half-term I was really worried how I would cope with Elizabeth at home. She has this habit of saying, "Mum, I'm hu-nnnnngryyy" in a long whiney voice and I'm supposed to just magic something up within 2 minutes. I'm not Nigella Lawson, I'm afraid, so don't have a well-stocked cupboard of healthy foods that would appeal to 12-year olds. But so far she's been fine. This morning she went into the kitchen to prepare beans on toast for herself - never been known. So, I'm sorry, Lizzie, I should have had more faith in you. She wasn't too keen on me starting the LighterLife Programme as she thought I would die not eating, but she has become very supportive over the last week and is showing a good maturity towards what I am doing.
This morning we went over to my friend Lisa. Lisa has lived with my ups and downs in both moods and weights over the last 9 years we have known each other. She says my weightloss is noticing already and my skin is looking really good and clear. Oooh, I always knew she was my BESTEST friend! I could eat her! (but I'm off food, aren't I?). She even started looking LighterLife up on the Internet herself.
All-in-all, not a bad day. And a card from John this morning, with a little rhyme - "roses are red, violets are green (?), loves you if you're cuddly, loves you when your'e thin" aah, bless him!
But I'm not ashamed, actually, I'm quitely chuffed with myself. At last I'm taking control. I'm committed to this Programme now and we haven't even started the CBT and TA work yet. (CBT = Cognitive Behavoural Therapy and TA = Tansactional Analysis). I'm rather looking forward to the coming sessions. Five years ago I completed a Basic Counselling Skills course at adult education classes. I really enjoyed the course and would like to have taken it further but I was going through a period of, undiagnosed at the time, depression that was made worse by a recent hysterectomy and the death of my Dad. It will be very interesting to see the counselling sessions in action and be part of the process. I can't wait. I shall say more about the counselling as we go along, without giving any pertinent information as anything said in group is completely confidential and for the group only.
As it's half-term I was really worried how I would cope with Elizabeth at home. She has this habit of saying, "Mum, I'm hu-nnnnngryyy" in a long whiney voice and I'm supposed to just magic something up within 2 minutes. I'm not Nigella Lawson, I'm afraid, so don't have a well-stocked cupboard of healthy foods that would appeal to 12-year olds. But so far she's been fine. This morning she went into the kitchen to prepare beans on toast for herself - never been known. So, I'm sorry, Lizzie, I should have had more faith in you. She wasn't too keen on me starting the LighterLife Programme as she thought I would die not eating, but she has become very supportive over the last week and is showing a good maturity towards what I am doing.
This morning we went over to my friend Lisa. Lisa has lived with my ups and downs in both moods and weights over the last 9 years we have known each other. She says my weightloss is noticing already and my skin is looking really good and clear. Oooh, I always knew she was my BESTEST friend! I could eat her! (but I'm off food, aren't I?). She even started looking LighterLife up on the Internet herself.
All-in-all, not a bad day. And a card from John this morning, with a little rhyme - "roses are red, violets are green (?), loves you if you're cuddly, loves you when your'e thin" aah, bless him!
Tuesday 13 February 2007
Day 7
Nearly a week. It's been a long week but worth it. I'm off to the first weeks weigh-in this evening. I wonder how much more weight I've lost sinceSunday?
Elizabeth's on half-term this week and she wanted to go to Lakeside (our local shopping centre) to get some shoes. So off we went but we only stayed 2 hours and in that time I had to find 2 toilets. We would normally have a lunch out, probably only a sandwich or baggette in a cafe but, of course I couldn't, so Lizzie had a sandwich and Ribena from Boots and we sat outside on a bench, her eating her sandwich and me drinking my obligatory bottle of water. I did miss my cappuccino.
I must ask Heather how others cope with going out. When you have so much water to drink over the course of the day it's very awkward when you're out and about. I took a 50cl bottle with me and then bought another from Boots. I wonder how people manage doing this diet when they're out all the time?
I don't normally like shopping too much - unless it's for shoes. I have small feet (4 - 41/2) so it's easy getting shoes that fit. But clothes are different - I hate shopping for clothes. And looking for something in particular, like a wedding outfit, is horrendous. I did glance at things as I passed them today though, and thought, "not long now". The only thing is, I don't know what suits me anymore. For the last 10 years or so I have worn a lot of clothes by Weekenders, a ladies direct sales company, who up until last summer I was a representative for. The clothes can be quite smart and can all be co-ordinated well, but they all have soft or elasticated waists so are very forgiving of the larger figure. I still wear their clothes now and will continue to when I have lost my weight but I would like to find other clothes to wear as well, and to be honest I don't know where to start. Maybe it will be something we discuss in the meetings. I can't be the only one who doesn't know where to start.
I had a shock whilst I was out. Although it shouldn't really have been a shock. It was on my second toilet visit. I had just washed my hands and turned to look for a drier when I noticed my sideways reflection in a long mirror. Slump! My self-confidence hit the floor. It's always a shock when I see my reflection. And it always upsets me. That's one of the reasons I won't go clothes shopping - the trying on and the mirrors. And the fact that I tell John (when he says why don't I go treat myself) that I will do so when I've lost weight. It doesn't help when he says, "you've been saying that for years". So the boost I got from losing the 6lbs by Sunday needs reinforcing tonight definitely.
I have an extra incentive to lose the weight as well. I've got John to sponsor me. He said he'd do £1 a lb, I said £5, he said £2.50 and I said "Done!". And he has been, 'cos I'll get more out of him for every stone I lose as well, he just doesn't know that yet....hee,hee,hee!
Will speak later....bye
Elizabeth's on half-term this week and she wanted to go to Lakeside (our local shopping centre) to get some shoes. So off we went but we only stayed 2 hours and in that time I had to find 2 toilets. We would normally have a lunch out, probably only a sandwich or baggette in a cafe but, of course I couldn't, so Lizzie had a sandwich and Ribena from Boots and we sat outside on a bench, her eating her sandwich and me drinking my obligatory bottle of water. I did miss my cappuccino.
I must ask Heather how others cope with going out. When you have so much water to drink over the course of the day it's very awkward when you're out and about. I took a 50cl bottle with me and then bought another from Boots. I wonder how people manage doing this diet when they're out all the time?
I don't normally like shopping too much - unless it's for shoes. I have small feet (4 - 41/2) so it's easy getting shoes that fit. But clothes are different - I hate shopping for clothes. And looking for something in particular, like a wedding outfit, is horrendous. I did glance at things as I passed them today though, and thought, "not long now". The only thing is, I don't know what suits me anymore. For the last 10 years or so I have worn a lot of clothes by Weekenders, a ladies direct sales company, who up until last summer I was a representative for. The clothes can be quite smart and can all be co-ordinated well, but they all have soft or elasticated waists so are very forgiving of the larger figure. I still wear their clothes now and will continue to when I have lost my weight but I would like to find other clothes to wear as well, and to be honest I don't know where to start. Maybe it will be something we discuss in the meetings. I can't be the only one who doesn't know where to start.
I had a shock whilst I was out. Although it shouldn't really have been a shock. It was on my second toilet visit. I had just washed my hands and turned to look for a drier when I noticed my sideways reflection in a long mirror. Slump! My self-confidence hit the floor. It's always a shock when I see my reflection. And it always upsets me. That's one of the reasons I won't go clothes shopping - the trying on and the mirrors. And the fact that I tell John (when he says why don't I go treat myself) that I will do so when I've lost weight. It doesn't help when he says, "you've been saying that for years". So the boost I got from losing the 6lbs by Sunday needs reinforcing tonight definitely.
I have an extra incentive to lose the weight as well. I've got John to sponsor me. He said he'd do £1 a lb, I said £5, he said £2.50 and I said "Done!". And he has been, 'cos I'll get more out of him for every stone I lose as well, he just doesn't know that yet....hee,hee,hee!
Will speak later....bye
Sunday 11 February 2007
Day 5
I've just got home from my first pop-in session. My ketones were in the perfect place and I've also managed to lose 6lbs in weight!!!!!! I can't believe it. I feel really boosted. Really ready for the week ahead.
Not quite how I felt earlier this morning, though. As most, we have a routine for Sundays. We go to Mass at 9.00am and then drive to Tesco, have breakfast and then do the weekly shop. Even though I had become a little tearful Friday evening, this morning was worse. I wasn't really hungry, but to see everyone tucking into breakfast and me not even being able to have a 'proper' cup of tea, was hard. But not as hard as walking around the shop. I have a probem with shopping when there are a lot of people around; I tend to get rather claustrophobic. And this morning I think the whole of Barking had come out to see how I would cope shopping when I knew I couldn't eat any of it. I wasn't interested in any of the 'rubbish' food, but I would almost have killed for an apple or a nice piece of fish. As I said, I wasn't hungry, it was the mental deprivation that was doing for me.
I therefore went to the LighterLife office this afternoon with rather a heavy heart. But once I walked in and saw Heather and the other girls that were there my mood began to change. Once I'd done my little wee (which is absolutley no problem to do at the moment - I could wee for England!) and that had shown that I was in ketosis and then was weighed, I could feel the tears welling up again. But these were tears of happiness, not frustration or fear of failure as they had been on Friday. I'm quite an emotional person and, embarrassingly for me, my emotions always show through my tearducts.
I had absolutley no problems, therefore, when I got home sitting drinking my vegetable soup(my favourite) whilst John, Elizabeth and Mum (who cooked) sat eating roast pork and all the trimmings.
Long may this feeling continue.........
Not quite how I felt earlier this morning, though. As most, we have a routine for Sundays. We go to Mass at 9.00am and then drive to Tesco, have breakfast and then do the weekly shop. Even though I had become a little tearful Friday evening, this morning was worse. I wasn't really hungry, but to see everyone tucking into breakfast and me not even being able to have a 'proper' cup of tea, was hard. But not as hard as walking around the shop. I have a probem with shopping when there are a lot of people around; I tend to get rather claustrophobic. And this morning I think the whole of Barking had come out to see how I would cope shopping when I knew I couldn't eat any of it. I wasn't interested in any of the 'rubbish' food, but I would almost have killed for an apple or a nice piece of fish. As I said, I wasn't hungry, it was the mental deprivation that was doing for me.
I therefore went to the LighterLife office this afternoon with rather a heavy heart. But once I walked in and saw Heather and the other girls that were there my mood began to change. Once I'd done my little wee (which is absolutley no problem to do at the moment - I could wee for England!) and that had shown that I was in ketosis and then was weighed, I could feel the tears welling up again. But these were tears of happiness, not frustration or fear of failure as they had been on Friday. I'm quite an emotional person and, embarrassingly for me, my emotions always show through my tearducts.
I had absolutley no problems, therefore, when I got home sitting drinking my vegetable soup(my favourite) whilst John, Elizabeth and Mum (who cooked) sat eating roast pork and all the trimmings.
Long may this feeling continue.........
Saturday 10 February 2007
Day 4
Before I write anymore I'd like to say sorry for the typos on yesterday's post. I really must brush up on my typing skills...
Also, my spelling....councellor is spelt counsellor!!!
Well, I'm getting through Day 4 Ok, but it is still a trial drinking the water. You see I don't really like water very much - unless it's a hot day. It will be better once get the LL flavourings. I tried both at the first meeting last Tuesday. They are Fruits of the Forest and Citrus and were both quite pleasant - definitely better than plain water. The flavourings also contain fibre, so you at least get some extra goodness from them.
I was working this morning and John phoned my mobile just before I left te office at 12.30 to say that he would meet me in the usual place. Thanks! I thought. Our normal routine of a Saturday is for him and our daughter to meet me in a local cafe for lunch after I finish work and he has picked Elizabeth (our daughter) up from her karate class. Just what I didn't want to do. But I thought if I can cope with this only 4 days in and avoid temptation then it bodes well for the next 95 days. Well, give me a medal! I sat there with a black coffee and my bottle of water while they both ate their lunches and I wasn't too worried either. After lunch we walked around the shops for a while but I began to feel a little queasy. By the time we got home it was gone 3pm, I hadn't had a foodpack since 8.15 and my water had run out about an hour and a half before. Once we got indoors and I had had my soup, I felt much better. I shall need to be careful in future and make sure if I can't have a foodpack, I at least have water available.
One of the girls at work asked if I had lost weight. She didn't know I was doing LL. Hurray!!!
Off to the pop-in to check my ketones tomorrow - I'll let you know...
I shall also be changing the Thai Chili soups that I have left. Not to my liking - at all!
Also, my spelling....councellor is spelt counsellor!!!
Well, I'm getting through Day 4 Ok, but it is still a trial drinking the water. You see I don't really like water very much - unless it's a hot day. It will be better once get the LL flavourings. I tried both at the first meeting last Tuesday. They are Fruits of the Forest and Citrus and were both quite pleasant - definitely better than plain water. The flavourings also contain fibre, so you at least get some extra goodness from them.
I was working this morning and John phoned my mobile just before I left te office at 12.30 to say that he would meet me in the usual place. Thanks! I thought. Our normal routine of a Saturday is for him and our daughter to meet me in a local cafe for lunch after I finish work and he has picked Elizabeth (our daughter) up from her karate class. Just what I didn't want to do. But I thought if I can cope with this only 4 days in and avoid temptation then it bodes well for the next 95 days. Well, give me a medal! I sat there with a black coffee and my bottle of water while they both ate their lunches and I wasn't too worried either. After lunch we walked around the shops for a while but I began to feel a little queasy. By the time we got home it was gone 3pm, I hadn't had a foodpack since 8.15 and my water had run out about an hour and a half before. Once we got indoors and I had had my soup, I felt much better. I shall need to be careful in future and make sure if I can't have a foodpack, I at least have water available.
One of the girls at work asked if I had lost weight. She didn't know I was doing LL. Hurray!!!
Off to the pop-in to check my ketones tomorrow - I'll let you know...
I shall also be changing the Thai Chili soups that I have left. Not to my liking - at all!
Friday 9 February 2007
Hello to anyone interested in reading this blog. The main reason for writing is to follow my journey to "slimness". My journey with Lighter Life.
I have tried various diet plans with good and bad results, but have always just put the weight back on, and more.
My weight has just crept up and up over the years (I'm 51) and I'm now at the heaviest I've ever been.
Lighter Life, for me, is a final chance to get my life back in line. I don't want to take one or two years to lose weight. I know I would give up. It's all or nothing now.
I went to my first information session on 16th January and felt really motivated about starting. Unfortunately, I had to wait a week and half to see my doctor for the medical and then another week to begin the Foundation. At first I was so excited about starting but as time went on I became really anxious and nervous about it. And I sabotaged myself - I ate anything I could get my hands on.
Anyway, I went to my first meeting last Tuesday, 6th February. There were 9 of us there. One lady, Debbie, had already done the Programme a few months ago, but went to Florida for Christmas and put it all on again. She was very positive about LL and has at least come back, but I found it a bit of a downer as, for me, this is a commitment, the first day of the rest of my life and I don't want to have in the back of my mind that I could fail. I am trying to tell myself that this was her problem, not mine. It is not going to happen to me. I will lose and maintain. after an initial chat by our councellor we were then weighed, measured and our photos taken. I shall stick a photo or two up on this blog if I can find how to do it. I suppose I should put my starting statistics down here, so here goes (and to those of you who may be reading this and have a longer journey to go than I do, I wish you luck and hope you recognise that everyone's journey is relevant to them and is unique). Right, my stats are as follows:
Weight 14st 11lb
Height 5' 5"
Bust 46"
Waist 40"
Hips 491/2"
We then watched a DVD giving us an idea of what the first week would be like for our bodies whilst, Heather, our councellor sorted out the foodpacks.
Day 1 - My first day, Wednesday 7th, wasn't too difficult, although I am having trouble mixing the foodpacks. I don't seem to be able to get rid of all the lumps. I also had trouble drinking all the water but I think this was because I was at work and very busy. I work for a building society and I was working on the tills so was unable to drink in front of customers. I didn't feel hungry at all though.
Day 2 - Thursday was an easier day. I as a home as my daughter was not at school because of the snow. It was much easier drinking the water at home. I did feel though that I was drowning which made me feel quite queasy at times. I hope I can continue drinking this much.
Day 3 - This morning. I woke feeling really energetic and well. My work skirt is not so snug. Good going! The energy didn't last all day though, but that was probably just normal, but doing this makes you notice everything you're feeling. I felt quite hungry when I got home and then the thought of cooking for my husband and daughter made it worse. I shall admit that I became quite tearful but he is very supportive and took over the cooking for me. He said I should give up if I wanted to but I don't want to - and I've also told too many friends and family that I'm doing this. There's no way I'm giving up without a huge fight with my willpower. I shall contnue and take easch day at a time. John, my husband, says I should set goals and rewards (like buying some new skirt when I reach a stone loss). But no way, by the time I get to wear that skirt for probably the second time it would be too big fpr me, wouldn't it? .....So roll on tomorow!
I have tried various diet plans with good and bad results, but have always just put the weight back on, and more.
My weight has just crept up and up over the years (I'm 51) and I'm now at the heaviest I've ever been.
Lighter Life, for me, is a final chance to get my life back in line. I don't want to take one or two years to lose weight. I know I would give up. It's all or nothing now.
I went to my first information session on 16th January and felt really motivated about starting. Unfortunately, I had to wait a week and half to see my doctor for the medical and then another week to begin the Foundation. At first I was so excited about starting but as time went on I became really anxious and nervous about it. And I sabotaged myself - I ate anything I could get my hands on.
Anyway, I went to my first meeting last Tuesday, 6th February. There were 9 of us there. One lady, Debbie, had already done the Programme a few months ago, but went to Florida for Christmas and put it all on again. She was very positive about LL and has at least come back, but I found it a bit of a downer as, for me, this is a commitment, the first day of the rest of my life and I don't want to have in the back of my mind that I could fail. I am trying to tell myself that this was her problem, not mine. It is not going to happen to me. I will lose and maintain. after an initial chat by our councellor we were then weighed, measured and our photos taken. I shall stick a photo or two up on this blog if I can find how to do it. I suppose I should put my starting statistics down here, so here goes (and to those of you who may be reading this and have a longer journey to go than I do, I wish you luck and hope you recognise that everyone's journey is relevant to them and is unique). Right, my stats are as follows:
Weight 14st 11lb
Height 5' 5"
Bust 46"
Waist 40"
Hips 491/2"
We then watched a DVD giving us an idea of what the first week would be like for our bodies whilst, Heather, our councellor sorted out the foodpacks.
Day 1 - My first day, Wednesday 7th, wasn't too difficult, although I am having trouble mixing the foodpacks. I don't seem to be able to get rid of all the lumps. I also had trouble drinking all the water but I think this was because I was at work and very busy. I work for a building society and I was working on the tills so was unable to drink in front of customers. I didn't feel hungry at all though.
Day 2 - Thursday was an easier day. I as a home as my daughter was not at school because of the snow. It was much easier drinking the water at home. I did feel though that I was drowning which made me feel quite queasy at times. I hope I can continue drinking this much.
Day 3 - This morning. I woke feeling really energetic and well. My work skirt is not so snug. Good going! The energy didn't last all day though, but that was probably just normal, but doing this makes you notice everything you're feeling. I felt quite hungry when I got home and then the thought of cooking for my husband and daughter made it worse. I shall admit that I became quite tearful but he is very supportive and took over the cooking for me. He said I should give up if I wanted to but I don't want to - and I've also told too many friends and family that I'm doing this. There's no way I'm giving up without a huge fight with my willpower. I shall contnue and take easch day at a time. John, my husband, says I should set goals and rewards (like buying some new skirt when I reach a stone loss). But no way, by the time I get to wear that skirt for probably the second time it would be too big fpr me, wouldn't it? .....So roll on tomorow!
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